Tuesday, April 25, 2006

when i read livia's blog, i couldnt help butttttttsay to myself,"whatever".i dunno why do i sumtimes hate her sooooooooooooooooooooooo much until that hatred can kill someone.but how come she always gets her way.yes,im rong for calin her a something mean today, but why?WHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHY?why she can forgive other pl soooooooooo freakin easiliii but not me.i want to strangle her,hurt her,kill her for betraying and hurting me time n time again.it has neva stopped.i try to stop bullyin her, i support her when she has other fren problems,i tel the guys off when they bulli her,but wat do i get in return?a big fat ungrateful slap on my face.yeah, i noe being the listener of everybodii's probs is soooooooooo difficult tat sometimes u hurt other ppl.tat's liv.she has problems,everybodii expects her to be cheerful all the time,expects her to be the one,the victim who is constantly bullied, n everibodii expects her to be the one who will do nothing.i understand she is going through so much pressure,but sometimes,no,most of the times i just want to kill her,then all the problems will end for me,but killin is evil.n she has the rite to live.but i cant take it animore.at home is a livin hell.in schl, its also one.then where can i go?i realli feel liike dropin out,join gangsters who were always also rejected and hurt to the core,smoke to feel high and escape everything,be a rebel.cool huh?tats how painful im goin through,but im gonna try to stop whinin,complainin and gossipin.i just want to b left alone sumwhere with god, i want to b takn to heaven where full joy and happiness will neva end.no more fights,backstabbers n so many evil things in the world.but before i go,i want 2 say sorry to everybodii ive hurt so manii times.lord,come n take mi home.

Tuesday, April 11, 2006

LIVI LAMA is soooooooooooooooooooooo freakin poor thing! i read her bloggie n i felt kind of touched.yeah, she looks happy n all that kind of happi happi stuff, but wat i noe is tat her true feelins are hidden deep down in her heart.i want to understand n help her, but i just dun noe how to, n im not 100% surei can succeed or i want to............sheesh, gotta go, need to do the wormy thing, ill continue this sooooooooooooooooon